A Pitiful Girl's Cry [It's Always Been You]

Away from noise. Away from distraction. A silent room filled with endless vibrations and a dim and small light. Everytime I always think how to get rid of this feelings FOR GOOD. All this time I'VE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY. Maybe it's still you. I miss everything. And that's my main agenda: TO FORGET ALL THOSE MEMORIES AND LEAVE THEM AS A TRASH. Because I always know that you never care. I always know that you never feel the same way and that's my great great great foolishness: TO FALL FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOU.

At first I've never felt this joy in my life whenever we're together. Those great and memorable bondings we had. Those laughs and serious talks. Everytime, everytime I think of those I kept on developing this feeling called LOVE. Until such time that I became so foolish that I forget my duties and responsibilities. You are the reason why I became iresponsible. But still, I never avoide this feeling because deep deep inside I feel happiness and great joy, I feel the time stops, I feel my heart beating fast, I feel this unexplainable feeling, I feel CONTENTED.

Sometimes I feel that you feel it too. Sometimes I feel that we are meant to be. Sometimes I feel that destiny binded us together. So exaggerated, right? And that is really what I called LOVE.

But all those great times will soon vanish like a great history. Those times, those great times were so cherish that I forget that there is this thing we called time, cuz for me when we are together I never felt time ends. But now, a bitter reality, a sad ending, this good days will just remain a part of my memory, a part of my unforgettable past...


I said to myself, "move on", and I believe it was very successful, I seldom think of you. But when that time came, I never thought that...

Things do change and I do believe that you've change.

Me? I NEVER change. It's just that IT IS DIFFERENT.
We never get a change to talk like yesterday, we never laugh together just like yesterday, and we never made any moment together. Yes, yes, I always know that we can't be like that of yesterday, but I always hope that someday you'll realize my importance to you. That someday you'll learn the meaning of CARE. That someday we will be like that again and forget bitter memories...

Now, I think that we're getting better, you've achieved one of your dreams and I've always been here, watching you pursue your dreams, watching you smile, watching you talk, watching your eyes met mine... [and watching that very simple but meaningful keychain I've gave to you-ATTACHED TO YOUR BAG]


Now I come to realize, after all this denials, I say, IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOU.


[hahaha.JULY12.TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!]